Cancer really does change people in so many ways. I've always heard the phrase 'Cancer changes people' and have always assumed it was because they were forced to face their mortality and the possibility of dying and the physical changes. YES that is all true...But NOW after going through this 1st hand, I realize it is sooo much more than that. Since starting chemo my senses have heightened. My hearing, my brain activity but mostly my heart. I appreciate everything more and LOVE more. I LOVE MY HUSBAND MORE,  I LOVE MY CHILDREN MORE , I LOVE MY PARENTS & SIBLINGS MORE,  I LOVE MY EXTENDED FAMILY MORE. I even love strangers I see around at the store or Homeless on the street (before I would unintentionally judge and assume things, BUT now I don't). Now I look at them and realize that everyone is going through something and struggling. So I'll give them a smile or stop to chat and hopefully it helps in someway. This is sooo not me before all this cancer stuff. ...

It's just hair....RIGHT??? Growing up in Utah as a minority isn't easy. Some people go through identity issues. For me it was always my hair. Long, big & curly was always my problem instead of straight, blonde & silky. Even when people around me loved my hair...I didn't.  I even won Best Hair one year, but that didn't change me stressing over my hair growing up.  Ironically the last couple of years I started to love my hair no matter if curly or straight, short or long, frizzy or smooth. It has taken most my life to really love my hair. So it is very ironic that I finally get here, just to loose it all.   I decided to cut it shoulder length right before surgery for easy maintenance and to get ready to loose it all.  Then after my 2nd round of chemo it started to weaken and break. It was week 3 that I was in the shower and it just came out in big chunks. I lost about 75% in that shower. So I decided t...