Christmas 2017 Christmas was exactly 3 weeks since I was diagnosed.  These last few weeks have been a roller coaster of emotions to say the least.  One moment I'm positive and wanting to get everything started. The next moment I'm scared and I don't want to do it - any of it.  Then I'm good again, then down again.  Funny now looking back I haven't felt angry. I have been so blessed in my life and I feel like I really haven't had a big trail in awhile. It's kinda like I'm good with it and most of the time I want to get the treatment started. Christmas was awesome!  I didn't do Christmas like I usually do.  I usually do more lights and decor. I usually stay up late every night doing fun Elf-on-the-shelf  set ups. I usually have a list and budget...but I always go over and buy too much stuff.  This year I spent more time with my kids. We went out and did things as a Family.  I gave more snuggles and I say I-love-you more....

The Beginning The summer of 2017 was when I 1st saw signs that something was off. I had actually started a new job working on the ramp (out with the bags & Aircrafts ) for Delta Airlines at the SLC airport . My twins were starting 1st grade so I was excited to get out working again. And I love working on the ramp.  Over the summer months I noticed a couple times a red spot on my undergarments, but didn't think anything of it. (WARNING - TMI ahead) It was on our trip to California that my breast started discharging blood from the nipple regularly.  So I made an apt. to see our Family Doc. 2 weeks later I'm getting a breast exam from the nurse practitioner. She didn't find anything to be concerned about and told me I could get a mammogram if I wanted to but doesn't think I need to.   So I thought 'you know what...this isn't normal'. So I told her to order it. I HAD TO FOLLOW MY INSTINCTS AND TAKE CONTROL OF MY HEALTH (sometimes you...